Should I fear from you or love you!

My name is Obeid, I live in Tunis, I am a 20-year-old young man. I turned to sex addiction to find my soul; it was the only way out, and it gave me something to rely on other than humans. I had nowhere to turn for support. Even knowing who God is makes me anxious. He has been portrayed as the Giant god seeking revenge for my sins. This drives me to get even more immersed in sex.

I awoke one morning feeling hatred for my body and soul, as well as a strong sense of rejection by God. While mindlessly scrolling and aimlessly turning through TV shows, I came across an episode that addressed masturbation. So, I took a deep breath and sat watching and listening to Miracle’s satellite show’s lady presenter. Her words reflected what was going on inside my soul, mirroring my attitudes and distorted sentiments toward myself and God. The most startling news I’ve ever heard is that God still loves me despite all I’ve done. I burst into tears and immediately called the number shown on the screen.

When I spoke with the counsellor, I was overwhelmed with feelings of deep guilt, but I also felt acceptance and blamelessness love. So, I wondered how The Great God, The Avenger, The Mighty, The Self Exalted could love me. She responded with something I’ll never forget: “Does the fountain of love become an avenger?”

This conversation was insufficient for me since it sparked in me a profound desire to know God. So, I asked to meet, and what surprised me the most was that I did not meet with the counsellor alone. Four of my friends who were feeling deprived of God’s love and with whom I shared my story came with me. It has never been easier to accept Jesus as God after so many back-and-forth debates. We had a lot of questions snapping at our sacred heritage and customs. The fight had ended not just in our minds, but also in our hearts, which had been crying out to God in desperate need.

We’re not done yet; we’re still thirsty for deeper knowledge and a closer relationship with God. Yet the question remains, how we would handle our future in a society that did not have mercy. We continue to believe that the Lord will lead and guide us through this difficult time with his love and forgiveness. Finally, with the assistance of Miracle’s channel team, we have joyfully entered this great and loving adventure of learning. I am so grateful to the Lord and the team.